Do you ever just feel broken? I’ve felt this way now for three days. I’ve prayed; I’ve read scripture; spent much time in devotion…and crying. But this wave of empty and panic remains. God’s trying to push an attention on me I know. So I must write and then see where He leads. My work for Him.
I feel such loss, for the loss I have endured, I feel I cannot. It has overwhelmed me. My focus cannot see. Help me Lord to see your mercy, help me to dwell in your arms and let you hold me. Just hold me. And then I can quiet in your calm, for right now I cannot find calm in my days. I frantically search my mind as it wanders and grows dim in strength. I need your power and Holy Spirit into my soul Lord – please take not away.
From book in it’s entirety: pg. 13
Nothing Can Separate Us –
(Romans 8:39) Nothing can “separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Nothing! And yet we stumble from this – from Jesus and what He actually does in our life. See 9:32, 33 – a stumbling stone He is made.
That same to which we are saved, we stumble to accept…and often treat this hope as a “rock of offense.” Why? See Romans 9:32 – because we try and attain through works (ourselves) and not by faith. If we keep faith – and build it daily – we can learn where Jesus is. And rejoice that He is in our life, not by what we do to bring Him to us but by faith in God and His purpose. (see 8:28 Romans, “…according to His purpose.” ) And we learn in our searching, and our groaning in suffer. We learn to search God by the Spirit in ourselves…in our hearts placed by God through Jesus, for us to see Him (in us). We learn through our groaning, what is the will of God’s purpose.
And through faith in Jesus – even when He stumbles our hearts – we learn to move in the place and the way He wants us. Not we ourselves or any other, but our groanings carry us to God’s will. So if and when we hurt – look to see where it may lead us. Make sure, by surrender to God, this hurt has not a purpose. God’s purpose in our life.
Through faith, non-waivering faith, in His Son, our Savior Jesus Christ, we may see His purpose as our life. And nothing can separate us. Nothing.